I once was in a place that absolutely meant the world to me. Everyday I couldn't wait to go there & see what people had done, join in on laughs, create things etc...
But as time has gone by, this place has slowly deteriorated & it is now a breeding ground for resentment, selfishness, underminment & jealousy. I have tried to hold onto hope that this was a phaze but time after time the evidence is that the deterioration is just getting worse & the thing I cared about & tried to hold onto so dearly is beyond repair. As hard as it is I think I have just begun the letting go process that I tried so desperately to avoid.
It's sad when a place that once had alot of potential loses itself in a cesspool of ego and conflict but it does tend to happen when a group's members don't appear to put the needs of the group ahead of their own agendas. It's also hard to let go of a place where you have friends and have given alot of time to, but sometimes it's necessary to move on & do what is best for you. This doesn't mean you have to close the door entirely, because it has been such a big part of your life. On the other hand, don't hold yourself back from other avenues either by waiting on improvements there.